You look just like trouble.

eloquent and self assured

an artist's grasp of insecure

I fashion the most unlikely ideas. I sometimes scare the crap out of myself. I am nocturnal. I am conceited. I'm a mess. Writing is my escape, jotting down kept emotions is fun (try it haha). I may elaborate way too much on a simple thought, so feel free to stop me whenever you want. My mom lets me carry a swiss knife whenever I go out. I am a very random person, hello XD I PMS like a betch. I am in love with Katy Perry :3 And no I'm not a lesbian.
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Sorry.

Sunday, December 06, 2009, 12/06/2009 06:06:00 PM

I guess I always knew we'd make it.

And now I guess I'm wrong.

Broken Promises, The Ordinary, Limitations

Thursday, November 05, 2009, 11/05/2009 12:58:00 AM

"Why are you taking so long to answer a simple question?"

"It's not as simple as you think..."

"Tell me how can a "state an unforgettable moment with him" be complicated to answer?"

"'Cause I can't distinguish our days-spent together from our days-spent apart anymore. And this is all I have of him."
"Is that bad?"

"No, it's not bad. It's... Sad."
"..."

"You know... These are the best things in life, quietness and just staring at things."

"Cause it's at these times when you realize, there is something that's worth so much more."

"Exactly."

Six kinds of glue

Monday, August 31, 2009, 8/31/2009 04:04:00 AM

Addict na ko sa Burger Shop, shit stop me. :|

I have 3 major Papers to be submitted on Wednesday, and instead of doing 'em I'm blogging while Burger Shop is paused :)) NOT FUNNY. UGH. I have sipon pa :c

Uhm..
Hey if ever you're reading this, I hope you're doing fine already. And I'm sorry, still. Advanced happy birthday :)

I wanted you to change, to be mature, to be realistic and to let loose your grip. And now that your eyes have been open to the real world where commitment isnt as easy as you think... Im scared. That you might wander off and realize you're missing out on a lot of things because of what we have. And yes, sometimes I feel that. But when I heard it from you, I felt devastated. I dont think I can even handle the thought of you wanting someone else. Now I know how you felt, 4 times in a row. Fuck. Why must my Scorpio traits reign all the time?

I'm sorry. I cant even count how many times I've hurt you. And I dont want to anymore. Breaking up isnt gonna fix us, 'cause we both know there isnt anyone else better to have. You're a part of me now, to the point that there cant even be a ME without YOU. Yeah, that's as shmaltzy as it gets. Basta, I know you're not my rockstar and you dont go with my "artist" lifestyle, I have more vices than you, I am more outgoing and rebellious, I hate your PC games, You hate my drinking habits, You're more mature in some ways, Im too selfish sometimes... We might have realized we lots of differences far too late, but I'm super duper thankful you stayed.

We're making great progress, I can tell. 2 and a half weeks of no fighting, man that's a new record! XD

Anyway, c'mon Peng... Press the exit button NOW! You can do this!

Bye.

Oh dear plates...

Wednesday, July 15, 2009, 7/15/2009 09:45:00 PM

Gimme my social life back! :((

I'm starting to hate garlic, dots, lines, construction paper, and tomorrow I will hate sea shells. One thing I love about this hectic life... The booze break. Such a stress reliever srsly! But nah, I'm no alcoholic, hell we still do our plates while drinking! That's how much we work, even at play time. D: HUHU. I love my blockmates, sana blockmates nalang kami til we graduate :(

So I'm done with Audrey Hepburn, guess what's next? SELF PORTRAIT BABY! Shit I better do good on this one or else I've nothing else to blame but my beyutipol pes. ;))

Forgive me, it's my coffee break/ Mafia Wars break/ blog break jam-packed in one (this is only for an hour -__-)

Pes awt.

24/7

Monday, July 06, 2009, 7/06/2009 02:46:00 PM

So college has started.

Man oh man was it brain-damaging-but-nonetheless-FUN. I have a hectic schedule, with no breaks thus hunger strike... I feel like my intestines wanna come right out and punch me and feed themselves nalang. Haha.

A LOT of things have changed:
1. My hair color. :D
2. My sleeping habits, I became more nocturnal. (forced)
3. I am now an avid coffee consumer (IT REALLY DOES HELP DURING SLEEPLESS NIGHTS)
4. I now smoke pot. JOKE LANG hahaha! Nah, that's not how I roll.
REAL #4: I found myself, at long last.

It's great, feels super great to be lost and found again. And it was in a familiar place, turns out I didn't lose myself at all. I just had to realize, it's never gonna fade away from me. And I have two people to thank for that. :)

HAY. Ang sarap mag blog ulit. I feel like my emotions were held back for weeks because of these plates (which I havent fully finished yet -__-) So forgive me if this entry's a bit long. I HAVE LOTS TO SHARE.

UP has been everything I hoped it would be. The stress, the energy-draining travel from building to building, the jeepney rides, the hilarious-mataray professors, the thick readings, your ''HELLO POH ATE" classmates =)) (yes, it's kinda nice being in a pool of stereotypes... makes you proud that you're still sane and COOL wahaha!) Grabe, I'm lovin' college. :D

But there are days that I would feel lost, like "WTH am I doing here?" I feel frustrated that everybody in class is better than me when it comes to free-hand drawing. Those guys have been drawing and sketching since birth, and I'm still catching up with what they've been doing all their lives. But just the fact that I passed the talent test gives me enough proof that I can do whatever these people are doing. I'm trying so hard not to doubt my capabilities, but it's hard... Alam mo yun, sa buong class, ako lang yung pinaulit yung work... Kasi mali daw yung pag drawing. Di ko daw magaya ng maayos, eh ilang beses ko na naulit. Masakit lang yung rejection at yung criticism. I know, I know... always take them in a constructive way. And that's what Imma do. I know it sounds cliche and cheesy, but Imma start believing in myself more.

Waha. Kudos.

I miss my HS friends :( Sorry if I havent been replying or hanging out with you guys, super parusa mga plate ko. T_T Promise, maghahang out tayo pag mejo maluwag sched ko. :D

Pachuca Sunrise

Saturday, June 06, 2009, 6/06/2009 08:09:00 PM

I wish I could tell myself to stop. Pause, and hit fast forward, no more rewinds... 'Cause it'll end just the same. It'll end.

Pagkabuhay ni Tinkerbell.

Sunday, May 24, 2009, 5/24/2009 03:04:00 PM

I found myself last night. Sitting under the stars amidst Anberlin's Inevitable. It's been a while friend, I missed you. You who could conquer the world. You who was happy.

But there were perks, in return I had to end things. I had to let him walk alone. I had to hurt him. I had to set him free. And it was finally my time to be happy.

Don't feel you that you failed. You tried so hard, but when things aren't meant to be... They are not meant to be. I loved you so much that it hurt me that much as well.

You're my best friend, please don't forget.