eloquent and self assured
an artist's grasp of insecure
I fashion the most unlikely ideas. I sometimes scare the crap out of myself. I am nocturnal. I am conceited. I'm a mess. Writing is my escape, jotting down kept
emotions is fun (try it haha). I may elaborate way too much on a simple thought, so feel free to stop me whenever you want. My mom lets me
carry a swiss knife whenever I go out. I am a very random person, hello XD I PMS like a betch. I am in love with Katy Perry :3 And no I'm not a
lesbian.
Cheers.
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maybe love would be nice for someone else's life :(
Sunday, October 08, 2006, 10/08/2006 03:11:00 AM
it's been a week, well.. i'm still alive aren't i? it's gonna take some time for me to pass this stage of depression. kanina sa ym... shit talaga. :( this is driving me insane. i used to love crying, but this time every drop of tear breaks me in half. this time it's real. it's like being slapped by reality. forever is just another word. Cinderella never had a fairygodmother. The 7 dwarfs never knew Snow White. and fairy dusts and thinking of happy thoughts wont make me fly.i'm sorry, i'm so sorry. my life is officially miserable. i don't want to move on, i don't want to let go. i'd rather stay here and weep until nothing is left of me, than to meet another person who will make a new puzzle in my life. nothing can compare, and no one is suitable enough to replace you. GOD! what is happening to me??? why did i suddenly become a prisoner of someone? I used to dominate, but i guess now... you dominated all of me. maybe that's the change that occured to me that almost everybody is complaining about. well if it's wrong to love you then nothing canbe right anymore.
if only you can read this. yes, i am grieving. i may not show it, but you know me... i don't show everything. well... i'm gonna try real hard to get over. i'm gonna be fine. i hope you will too.
kurt... i love you. pretty much everybody in this freaking world knows that already, but i didn't really show that to you. but i really do. swear to God. thanks for everything. ΓΌ