eloquent and self assured
an artist's grasp of insecure
I fashion the most unlikely ideas. I sometimes scare the crap out of myself. I am nocturnal. I am conceited. I'm a mess. Writing is my escape, jotting down kept
emotions is fun (try it haha). I may elaborate way too much on a simple thought, so feel free to stop me whenever you want. My mom lets me
carry a swiss knife whenever I go out. I am a very random person, hello XD I PMS like a betch. I am in love with Katy Perry :3 And no I'm not a
lesbian.
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hello sunshine!
Monday, January 01, 2007, 1/01/2007 11:25:00 PM
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HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
Well yesterday was oh so fun, I think I ate a meal that would satisfy the whole year! haha, I was so FULL. The wine was better, I drank a lot but didn't get sober, of course it was just red wine. The fireworks ended a bit too early this year, but it was really an awesome sight.
2006 swiflty came and went by like all of a sudden it's 2007 already! I didn't even get to think over the things that happened last year. Well, I'm maybe a little too late but nonetheless I shan't waste time no more.
A lot of memorable things happened to me last year. Depression of having lost my old friends and school came, Moving on was hard, Competing with MONMON and CAMILLE was fun XD, Discovering Edward and Emery as my two new "loving" (haha) bestfriends was irreplaceable, the fun-filled gimmicks were way too awesome, Being 16 was hellafun!, and love came way.
Speaking of which, don't get me wrong but the love that I have right now? I really can't call it LOVE anymore. I don't know what happened, but it suddenly occured to me that this is going no where anymore. Call me crazy and absurd but this typical-critical-thinking heart of mine can't feel the "spark" no more. I know, it's so childish for me to be looking for the spark toward the one I love. But that's a girl's every fantasy, I mean Prince Charming never said I love you to Cinderella, but they shared love, through their eyes, through their emotions, and there was a spark between them! I don't need fireworks to tell me that there's a spark between us. I JUST NEED TO FEEL IT. BUT SADLY I DON'T. And I don't know why. How can something so perfect end up like this?--a mere trash worthless amidst vulnerable impudence. I love you. And that's it, I know you do too. But maybe those three words are said too much already that we don't mean it anymore. :(
IT'S TIME TO START ANEW. New Year's Resolutions? Hmm.. Well I only have one, AND GOD PLEASE LET ME FULFILL THIS ONE! I NEED TO/ I HAVE TO/ I MUST! LESSEN MY excruciating spending on insignificant "valuables" that I so call. For short, I MUST SAVE.
Well guys, be reminded that it's never too late to change. And one must not wait for the new year to change all his wrong doings, remember the ealier the better and it's better late than never! HAPPY HOLIDAYS ONCE AGAIN. ciao!
+only 6 more days and the holiday break is over+