eloquent and self assured
an artist's grasp of insecure
I fashion the most unlikely ideas. I sometimes scare the crap out of myself. I am nocturnal. I am conceited. I'm a mess. Writing is my escape, jotting down kept
emotions is fun (try it haha). I may elaborate way too much on a simple thought, so feel free to stop me whenever you want. My mom lets me
carry a swiss knife whenever I go out. I am a very random person, hello XD I PMS like a betch. I am in love with Katy Perry :3 And no I'm not a
lesbian.
Cheers.
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Monday, June 04, 2007, 6/04/2007 12:36:00 AM
Aww I saw my ate's suitor already. He went here yesterday to have dinner with us, and may I just say.. He's uber cute. OPS haha. Actually I find them (JC and Ate) very cute together. And my sister's the complete opposite of JC, well let's just say JC's more of a human being and my sister's a... well she's an alien. :D And then something poignant happened at that same night. Yup, I confessed something that all the while she knew already, and guess what? I'm allowed to have a boyfriend now :)) WTF!!!!Well with all the bonding and the "talks" that my sister and I had.. This was by far the shortest but the best one. I'm just so happy for her, alam niyo yun she's beginning to save the sweet text messages from JC :)) Tas every other day nagpapaload siya at nag-uunlimited, and I find her sometimes smiling for no reason. I know weird, very weird. Haha tas mga kasambahay ko naman laging hirit.. ... ...
"Hay ang sarap ma-inlove." ERR Yes it's really a great feeling when you're in love, but once that love stops and you no longer feel the spark .. your so called happiness will be turned in to mere dust, a pure melancholy that cuts you in half. Not only did your happiness turn in to mere dust, but you also became just another person to somebody. To somebody you once shared all your sorrows and happiness with. To somebody who held your hand and made you feel like you're the most beautiful person on Earth even when you're in your sweats. To somebody whose eyes seemed like two perfect pools of ember, those eyes that give you inspiration to live just one more day. To somebody who used to call you just to say "I love you''. To somebody you once pictured to be with forever.
To somebody who's a part of your past now. To somebody whom you'll let go of, and move on to the next step of life. To somebody whom you'll thank for once sharing half of his life with you. To that somebody, if ever you'll be reading this.. Well thank you. And now that there's someone new arriving, I just hope you'll find "her" too. :)
I am currently reading a new book (KIT YUNG BOOK AH!! SA PASUKAN! HAHA). Yup it's another Coelho read. By the River Piedra, I Sat Down and Wept. Obviously it's a Love Story, it's about the forgotten lover and the unspoken love, ouch mehn. Well I'm not yet done, but here's a very very very 100 times very beautiful paragraph from it...
"By the River Piedra I sat down and wept.
The air chills the tears on my cheeks,
And my tears fall into the cold waters that course past me.
Somewhere, this river joins another, then another,
Until--far from my heart and sight--
All of them merge withthe sea.
May my tears run just as far,
That my love might never know that one day..
I cried for him."
Gahd, that broke my heart. Hay anyway, til here. :)