eloquent and self assured
an artist's grasp of insecure
I fashion the most unlikely ideas. I sometimes scare the crap out of myself. I am nocturnal. I am conceited. I'm a mess. Writing is my escape, jotting down kept
emotions is fun (try it haha). I may elaborate way too much on a simple thought, so feel free to stop me whenever you want. My mom lets me
carry a swiss knife whenever I go out. I am a very random person, hello XD I PMS like a betch. I am in love with Katy Perry :3 And no I'm not a
lesbian.
Cheers.
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100th entry
Friday, July 20, 2007, 7/20/2007 07:02:00 PM
In about 3 hours, 2 hours and 44 minutes to be exact... I'll be experiencing SOME emotional difficulties.I got inside our car. Got my iPod. Part of My Past by Daphne Loves Derby was playing. A sudden moment of distraught.. Today I said goodbye, but I guess I should have said more. Last 35 seconds, I'll miss you-- was all that I uttered. I should've said that my life wont be the same anymore. I should've said that he's my bestfriend and that I love him so much, far more than anyone. I should've said thank you for every single thing that he has done for me. I wish I had more time to tell him and let him remember all our "chillax" good days. 3 years, wasn't even remotely enough. I wanted a lifetime. TIME SUCKS, it's never constant thus leading to miserable goodbyes.
The moment my head fell on my pillow, the loudest drop of tear followed. Tapos ayun, nonstop cry-a-thon na, I swear iyakin na kung iyakin pero sobrang hagulgol talaga ako eh. But that was my first time to cry aloud tas dumating si mom, alam kong sumilip siya.. Usually she'd go to me and give me a bear-hug, but she just stood there beside my doorI just felt so weak. Hindi na kita makikita, 2 years is still a question. In 2 years I'll be 18, I even wanted you to be there dancing with me in my Debut. I mean, we were supposed to be promdates... :((
10:18 on my watch, you're officially gone. Sobrang nanghihina ako @_@ Literally. Good thing there were some people who felt my silent call for comfort. Special mention Rocks! Haha, kungdi dahil sa kabaklaan ni Gerard Way di ako magiging okay. Haha thanks thanks. And syempre, IKAW... Pwede ka bang mawala? YOU always make me smile. Ayee :) Thanks. JOHN AND CAMILLE salamat :D Anywhoo.. I know this post was kind of DRAMATIC, well really dramatic. Just bear with me, it's not that easy to let go of someone you treasured for a very long time.
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING ED. THANK GOD FOR EDWARD. THANK TITA MOMMY AND TITO DADDY MANGIBIN (hahaha). Thanks for every damn thing, 2 years potek 2 years ang tagal nun @_@ Tas question mark parin pala yun. Hay, basta ingat kayo dyan. And please mag OL ka everyday pag nagka internet na kayo sa house niyo. I know I'm always busy with my schoolwork pero potek i-buzz mo parin ako! Tas dapat every month tumwag ka man lang sakin @_@ Hahaha Ang paranoid ko. I guess di lang ako sanay na wala ng Edward na sasalo sakin pag nasstuck yung takong ko sa mga butas ng sahig sa seed Haha. I love you Ed! :) LAPIT NA BDAY MOOO! :((