eloquent and self assured
an artist's grasp of insecure
I fashion the most unlikely ideas. I sometimes scare the crap out of myself. I am nocturnal. I am conceited. I'm a mess. Writing is my escape, jotting down kept
emotions is fun (try it haha). I may elaborate way too much on a simple thought, so feel free to stop me whenever you want. My mom lets me
carry a swiss knife whenever I go out. I am a very random person, hello XD I PMS like a betch. I am in love with Katy Perry :3 And no I'm not a
lesbian.
Cheers.
Layout: vehemency
Icon: reruntherace
BER
Saturday, September 01, 2007, 9/01/2007 11:01:00 PM
1st day of September, gawd it's like time's slipping through my fingers. I didn't even notice the changes.. gorr maybe I was just so preoccupied with school that I lost track of the real world. Yesterday, I spent my whole day watching TV, take note watching TV not DVD so that includes all those crappy channels, and that was by far the longest time I spent in front of the TV. I started at around 1pm all those kiddie tv shows were shown in Nick, Cartoon Network and Disney, since my sister likes it I was forced to watch it too. We were watching Pingu haha, alam niyo yun? Yung mga penguin na sira ulo. Walang ginawa si Pingu kungdi gumawa ng kagaguhan habang wala yung parents niya. Ampf kiddie show to ah take note.. What's the world coming to? Next thing you know, kiddie shows will involve Guns and Rockstars. XD Ayun, I ended mga 8:30. Grabe that's how exciting my weekend goes :|Gahh anyway, I like my layout a lot. Haha. BER months na, w/c means.. I'm turning a year older once again. Sobrang ironic, I'm turning 17 and I have an attitude that'll pass a 4-year-old-brat. I suddenly realized that shit ang spoiled ko nga @_@. My younger siblings have to bear with my tantrums, pag lumilipad na lahat ng gamit sa kwarto papasok na si Cyril tapos titingnan niya ako ng matagal tapos ako naman out of humiliation.. titigil na ako. XD Gahd, tapos kaninang dinner they were talking about how I acted when I was a kid.. I used to be this super maarteng-mataray-conceited baby girl, and everytime I'd go down the stairs dapat parang Cinderella entrance parati. Tapos humirit ate kong gago... Teka, are we still describing the BABY PENG or the Peng-present-Peng. WALANG DIFFERENCE EH. Tae tenks talaga no family? You lab me so mats.
Uhm September 2 na, 2:42 AM... HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAHASS SA TUESDAY! :)
You said, "I wish you were her."
...but you left out the E.
Dear Paul, I loved you from the classroom window but you were busy making girls like me miserable.
While sitting on this cold kitchen floor,
Head down to hide the tears,
I've realized, I've finally realized,
That you were never,
You were never meant, for me.
I've run out complicated theories
so now I'm taking back my words
I'm preparing for the breakdown
Your t-shirt lost its smell of you
and the bathroom's still a mess
Remind me why we decided this was for the best..
That was just... T_T I found 'em on deviantart. Hay... I want to plunge into a deep sleep and wake up remembering nothing. If life only had a refresh button. It's been a while. It's September already, 1 year na akong blogger. 1 year, but nothing has changed. Wasn't I supposed to be someone else by now? Someone who can face all the thing's I've been running from. I've become too good at being invincible. I'm an expert at playing it safe, and keeping it cool, because my pride is just so high that I cannot bear a defeat, a replacement, a rejection. But I swear this isn't who I want to be. A fake. A liar.
I refuse to let my life roll all over me...
I just want to escape from all of this. I'd run again if I have to, find someone else and waste his life. I'd do that over again if I have to. But you're here now, and believe it or not I'm changing for you, not because I was forced to do so. But because I want you to stay. I need you to stay.
...but you left out the E.
Dear Paul, I loved you from the classroom window but you were busy making girls like me miserable.
While sitting on this cold kitchen floor,
Head down to hide the tears,
I've realized, I've finally realized,
That you were never,
You were never meant, for me.
I've run out complicated theories
so now I'm taking back my words
I'm preparing for the breakdown
Your t-shirt lost its smell of you
and the bathroom's still a mess
Remind me why we decided this was for the best..
That was just... T_T I found 'em on deviantart. Hay... I want to plunge into a deep sleep and wake up remembering nothing. If life only had a refresh button. It's been a while. It's September already, 1 year na akong blogger. 1 year, but nothing has changed. Wasn't I supposed to be someone else by now? Someone who can face all the thing's I've been running from. I've become too good at being invincible. I'm an expert at playing it safe, and keeping it cool, because my pride is just so high that I cannot bear a defeat, a replacement, a rejection. But I swear this isn't who I want to be. A fake. A liar.
I refuse to let my life roll all over me...
I just want to escape from all of this. I'd run again if I have to, find someone else and waste his life. I'd do that over again if I have to. But you're here now, and believe it or not I'm changing for you, not because I was forced to do so. But because I want you to stay. I need you to stay.