eloquent and self assured
an artist's grasp of insecure
I fashion the most unlikely ideas. I sometimes scare the crap out of myself. I am nocturnal. I am conceited. I'm a mess. Writing is my escape, jotting down kept
emotions is fun (try it haha). I may elaborate way too much on a simple thought, so feel free to stop me whenever you want. My mom lets me
carry a swiss knife whenever I go out. I am a very random person, hello XD I PMS like a betch. I am in love with Katy Perry :3 And no I'm not a
lesbian.
Cheers.
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Friday, November 02, 2007, 11/02/2007 12:49:00 AM
Awts. Awts. Aaaaaawch T_T. Ugh, spray me some amnesia dust will ya? Gahdamnit! That momentum was unbearable. I almost fell off my seat watching them, eying them, cursing them! gahh I need some Smores pronto T_T Ayoko na ayoko na. I will kill her. Haha :| Invidious behcth on the loose. Leche leche leche! Kung feel mo ikaw yung tinutukoy ko well hindi ikaw yun, mukha mo tapos na ko sayo no and I'm far more pleasant-looking than you so just shut your trap. Guhh super.. I'm odious forgive me. I need my medicine, my chocolate. @_@I'm very much filled with anger that has been kept for a long time now. I'm tired, dead tired. I know that not all questions are answerable by yes or no, and I know how much this is hurting you. I know how much confusion you are dealing with and all I can do is run away from it all whenever I encounter that seemingly baffling question. I'm sure with my decision but something keeps on pulling me back. I feel like if I tell you what I really want I will end up regretting every single bit of it while staring at you with somebody else. Selfish right? But gahh don't mind me. I'm not the ideal girl and I'm not perfect. I'm a selfish arrogant prideful conceited mofo. I'm the worst person to end up with, with a commitment because I am the most confused person in the world. My heart is easily blown away and the next thing you know I'm holding a new pen writing a new story and then leaves it hanging once more without any closure just so I could run away from the pain.
See it never stops. I don't want to start all over, 'cause there's an on going cycle already. This may be my first attempt to end everything peacefully as possible. But something keeps pulling me back. Help.