eloquent and self assured
an artist's grasp of insecure
I fashion the most unlikely ideas. I sometimes scare the crap out of myself. I am nocturnal. I am conceited. I'm a mess. Writing is my escape, jotting down kept
emotions is fun (try it haha). I may elaborate way too much on a simple thought, so feel free to stop me whenever you want. My mom lets me
carry a swiss knife whenever I go out. I am a very random person, hello XD I PMS like a betch. I am in love with Katy Perry :3 And no I'm not a
lesbian.
Cheers.
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INFERNO
Saturday, January 26, 2008, 1/26/2008 04:55:00 PM
Still fatal. I can't even put this in to words. What the hell do you want me to do? I understand that you're just thinking for my betterment, but clearly I don't see anything wrong with what I'm doing. If my happiness is your downfall well shit that really hurts me. And if I'm really changing and you don't like it then please tell me, don't talk behind me. You guys are the people I expect to understand me the most. But right now I just feel so abandoned. The only thing wrong here is that I didn't bother to tell you guys, but you know eventually I will... Ano ba naman ako diba? This is so depressing, I need Edward :(On the other hand I AM COMPLETELY BAFFLED. Challenged as well, and don't forget tormented, stressed, cursed, and obviously not okay. A part of me goes "Awww" but at the end of the day I go "WTF am I putting myself in to?!" then it all comes back to you. I hate it that until now you're still THE basis for my perfect man. No wonder I have ten, 'cause I can't seem to find anyone who can suit this perfect one. But I don't want this anymore, this-this momentary bliss is just so heartbreaking. Idk am I just being pressured by the fact that my friends aren't supporting me? Or I'm just dead wrong?
Ugh, last night... last night broke my heart. Why do I even bother to say I'm sorry? I didn't do anything wrong to you. I feel so stupid.
But it was also last night that I realized, maybe I need someone else. Someone who calls me Penguin, who makes me wear that bright smile when he fetches his brother from our school :)
Thank you :)