eloquent and self assured
an artist's grasp of insecure
I fashion the most unlikely ideas. I sometimes scare the crap out of myself. I am nocturnal. I am conceited. I'm a mess. Writing is my escape, jotting down kept
emotions is fun (try it haha). I may elaborate way too much on a simple thought, so feel free to stop me whenever you want. My mom lets me
carry a swiss knife whenever I go out. I am a very random person, hello XD I PMS like a betch. I am in love with Katy Perry :3 And no I'm not a
lesbian.
Cheers.
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Monday, July 06, 2009, 7/06/2009 02:46:00 PM
So college has started.Man oh man was it brain-damaging-but-nonetheless-FUN. I have a hectic schedule, with no breaks thus hunger strike... I feel like my intestines wanna come right out and punch me and feed themselves nalang. Haha.
A LOT of things have changed:
1. My hair color. :D
2. My sleeping habits, I became more nocturnal. (forced)
3. I am now an avid coffee consumer (IT REALLY DOES HELP DURING SLEEPLESS NIGHTS)
4. I now smoke pot. JOKE LANG hahaha! Nah, that's not how I roll.
REAL #4: I found myself, at long last.
It's great, feels super great to be lost and found again. And it was in a familiar place, turns out I didn't lose myself at all. I just had to realize, it's never gonna fade away from me. And I have two people to thank for that. :)
HAY. Ang sarap mag blog ulit. I feel like my emotions were held back for weeks because of these plates (which I havent fully finished yet -__-) So forgive me if this entry's a bit long. I HAVE LOTS TO SHARE.
UP has been everything I hoped it would be. The stress, the energy-draining travel from building to building, the jeepney rides, the hilarious-mataray professors, the thick readings, your ''HELLO POH ATE" classmates =)) (yes, it's kinda nice being in a pool of stereotypes... makes you proud that you're still sane and COOL wahaha!) Grabe, I'm lovin' college. :D
But there are days that I would feel lost, like "WTH am I doing here?" I feel frustrated that everybody in class is better than me when it comes to free-hand drawing. Those guys have been drawing and sketching since birth, and I'm still catching up with what they've been doing all their lives. But just the fact that I passed the talent test gives me enough proof that I can do whatever these people are doing. I'm trying so hard not to doubt my capabilities, but it's hard... Alam mo yun, sa buong class, ako lang yung pinaulit yung work... Kasi mali daw yung pag drawing. Di ko daw magaya ng maayos, eh ilang beses ko na naulit. Masakit lang yung rejection at yung criticism. I know, I know... always take them in a constructive way. And that's what Imma do. I know it sounds cliche and cheesy, but Imma start believing in myself more.
Waha. Kudos.
I miss my HS friends :( Sorry if I havent been replying or hanging out with you guys, super parusa mga plate ko. T_T Promise, maghahang out tayo pag mejo maluwag sched ko. :D